..slow movements..

Day 27
11 November 2012
Weight: 107.5kg

Its day 27, overall total weight loss 6.5kg? its a slow movement.. :( but im glad at least it moves..huhu.. ive been eating a lot during dat time.. sigh.. hopefully could shed more kgs..

..Day 14..

Day 14
29 October 2012
Weight: 110kg

I still maintain my weight at 110kg.. Had been eating in Miri for like nobody's business!! Went to Miri last friday & just arrived last night! Upload pics later :D

So, day 14, I lose only 4kg? Damn yaw!!~

..Quickie!..

Day 7
22 October 2012
Weight : 110kg

Quick update on my weight. Continue later.. :D

..Last Day of The Week..

Obviously, it's Sunday! Another headache for Monday..which is, well..tomorrow! And so we had bbq last night with friends around.. Thank God I managed to control the carbo intake..weehoo!! Sadly, I only had my ASLDII for breakfast & lunch.. for dinner and supper i totally didnt even think bout it! Auw damn I was so busy! 2 of my friends were drunk, Adrian & Anuar..sad tho cos Adrian vomited blood! Just because he didnt ate anything during the day...gastric for short.. Hope he recover soon..!

As of today, had to do house chores..lots to clean up especially the kitchen.. I miss my morning ASDII, but I took for lunch & dinner..will have one more before bed time.. eheee :D

So, for today, weigh up myself this morning, I didnt lose nor gain..

Day 6
21 October 2012
Weight : 111kg

It's time for Cougar Town!! I'm so addicted to it!

..Hi Mr. Saturday!..

I was awake every hour during my sleep..not because of not comfy, but phone calls.. sigh... at least im not sleepy now... :D I'm having bbq gathering at my place today..having friends around and, yes, i gotto control my food intake..lol! no RICE..no NOODLES!


Day 4
19 October 2012
Weight : 112 kg

I didn't lose weight on my day 4.. maybe because i ate too much? not really..i had mix vege soup and I ate a packet of cream crackers(which i was not supposed to eat!!) well, its okay.. just once (yea rite).. So i weigh myself this morning..for day 5..


Day 5
20 October 2012
Weight : 111 kg

And I lose another kg..eheee... well at least there's a smile on my face on this Saturday morning..ehehe... So, till day 5, I've sheds 3kg.. Hoping I shed MORE...gotto keep the feeling strong!!

I'm going out for groceries shopping in a while with my friend and her son, Vivien & Aiman..for our bbq this evening.. will keep updating!

XoXo!!

..Lose Weight?..

So today is my first day of taking ALSD2.. ahaks.. I don't know how long will I stay with this product. But, since I'm thinking of the girls in Pitbull video clips, dang! I gotto start...like...NOW?! bwuahahaha...

Wishing myself 'Good Luck, Chuck!' LOL!! :P

Day 1
16 October 2012
Weight : 114 kg
Height : 169 cm

This might help....maybe? this what Khloe always said.. uhuk~

Day 2
17 October 2012
Weight : 113 kg


Day 3
18 October 2012
Weight : 112 kg

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I don't know for others, but standing alone though there's someone else beside's you, whom you called 'soul mate', is very hard.

Sometimes, I felt like I'm so useless in his eyes. Trying to do everything he asked for, still, doesn't satisfied his needs. How can I just please everyone surrounds me?

..31 Days..

The only thing I can do is counting the days. Hours. Minutes. Can't wait for the vacation to KL, Solo & Jogjakarta! Can't wait to meet Gil. :)

Gil..

Gil..

Gil...

..Weekend..

Its the last day of the week..definitely its Sunday. I'm not really happy during this 2 days I'm off, but just trying to laid back. Anyway, today is my baking day. :D Trying my doll's Red Velvet Cupcake recipe. Thanks to doll Carol :) Its my first time baking it and it works! I just love the cream cheese topping! Bliss!

Anyway, Saturday was bit bored. Went out to shop for groceries and a bread toaster? LOL! Its all because of ze King neway. At 545pm went for an evening mass. I was so excited to go, I really do. So, arrived at church, sat outside, as usual. Up front, I saw someone familiar. :D Its d Bubble Guy.. :D He was alone I thought at first cause he sat alone. LOL! Anyway, mass went well as usual. But when it comes to the receiving the Holy Communion, hmm.. I felt so left out. Everyone queued, while I just sat outside. Can feel my tears bout to burst, but still controllable :D

So, after the Holy Communion, I was seeking for this Bubble Guy, & he was not at his place. So, I told my sis 'He went back?'..and my sis was like 'He's just behind you..very close' .. Uhuhuhu.. Like minutes later, suddenly, someone touch my shoulder & said 'Hey Ms Bubble!' .. OMG? And yeah, we did chit chat a lil while. Auww.. He's sweet :)

Ok ok..so after church I sent my sis to tuition and I straight away head home. Had late dinner at around 10pm. Nothing much to do, so we all head home. Watched tv and I was kinda bored, so I online through my BB. I saw Bubble Guy online :) Had a chit chat and he asked where did I go after church. And he asked for my number..auww...

So this morning I woke up at 11am. Who cares whoever wake up early. C'mon, its my day, okay?? Went out for lunch and straight back home. I straight away baked the cupcakes & lasagne for dinner :D That's bout my weekend. Bored and nothing seems to be interesting. Sigh.. What happen, HuneyMadu?

..Ze King & Ze Indie..

The King will be back tomorrow and as usual, last minute thing called 'Spring Cleaning' need to be done. Orelse, I'll be in deep shit! I don't know am I looking forward for his arrival or am I just being mean? Hurmm.. How to get all that feelings back to myself? Where's the love? Care? Attention? Sigh.. I'm so mean. The Father's face & questions still lingering in my mind.

And so last night I had conversations with my long lost best friend since I was in Kindergarten. Gil as in short. Just because of his text saying 'I'm going to be the 3rd party soon' makes us having a 2 1/2 hours talk on the phone. LOL!

He's such a good friend of mine. We talk about the past, which was 21 years ago and he remembers everything so well. While I was still trying to captured the long lost moment. But yeah, I pictured it as Cute. Haha.. I don't know how honest he is towards me, but I felt bad cause I lied about my status, of being someone's wife, legally. I didn't mean to, but I have to for the time being. :( Even though I know there's no such thing as mentioned. Hmm.. Cruel me.

I hope one day I'll face him & tell him everything. Cause I know, someday soon, he needs to know. He's my shoulder for now, besides my mom. Poor mom, she shouldn't hear anything negative from me. And, I'm sorry Gil, I lied. :(

..Blue Wednesday..

'Monday Blues' doesn't exist only on Monday. But it happens to be on EVERY SINGLE DAY.

I've gone through a different kinda experience in life last night. What happen was, I was told by Pam that there's a confession session, which is the last day for yesterday. I was thinking, should I or should I not go. Since I think that I had TOO MUCH sins in life, so I should be going. That was around 1730hrs. At 18hrs, my mobile rang. It was a call from my boss. 'You gotto stay hold back tonight to do some stuff as we need it to be done by end of tomorrow(which is today!)". I was like, 'Okay, but after church & pick up my sis from tuition'.

Since I thought there's too much to do, I texted Pam and inform her I won't be going for the confession. Yet, my heart is eager to go. Minutes passed and I texted Pam, I've changed my mind, and I wanted to go. And so after sending my sis to tuition, we went to church. As usual, a lot of people were waiting for their turns. Well, obviously to do sins are easy and yet to confess is such a burden on the shoulder. I was so nervous at the first place. VERY. I compiled all my sins through out the pass 2 years since my last. Roughly, at 2120hrs, its my turn.

Sign of the cross, revealing all my sins, which I think I only mentioned 4 of it, it stops there. Silent. Father was asking 'Your marriage is not blessed by the church YET?'. I nodded. 'Not blessed?' again he asked. I nodded with a 'Yes, Father'. Without prior notice, Father told me 'You are not supposed to do this confession nor taking the Holy Communion'. I paused, and I asked, 'Oh ya? Really?'. And now his turn to nod his head and say 'Yes'. 'Your marriage is not blessed, so you can't come here for confession'. Guess how I felt that time? All the clouds, skies, stars, moon up there fell on my shoulder! I was so suprised!

And so the Father said, 'I will give you my blessing'. After the sign of the cross, which signals that its the end of the session, I was thinking, 'Where's my penance?'. 'Oh ya, I was not accepted for this time'. Walking out from the church without any prayer an just a 'Thank You, Lord' was so awkward! It seems like I am the top most horrible sinner in there.

2012 is our 7th years of marriage. And it was not blessed. Was wondering why I still not giving birth to my own child. Now I see why.

What is the meaning of all this?